I had big plans for nap time today. I was going to dust some baseboards, do a load of laundry, put a load of laundry away, and possibly get started on getting our home office a little more organized. I definitely needed to do the lunch dishes.
Instead I laid down between two of my babies (who aren’t really babies at all anymore) and took a nap. It was glorious.
Before I fell asleep, Ashton on one side and Avary on the other, I thought about how I wished I could gather up this moment into a neat little package and tuck it away for some day in the future…for a day when my itty bitties are all grown up and won’t cuddle with me anymore. I know on that day I’ll wish I could lay down in between them, smelling their freshly washed hair and snuggling up against their soft skin. I’ll wish I could watch them take deep breaths from under the blankets and give them soft kisses on their sleepy little cheeks. I’ll wish that they wanted me to read them a naptime story while they hung on my every word.
So I soaked it all in. I tried so hard to just breath in the moment, because it won’t last for long. I was fully and completely present. Why has it taken me so long to realize that this is what it means to be a mama? Why did I wait so long to enjoy my babies this way? Well, I’m going to do a lot more of it from now on. The dishes and baseboards can wait. They’ll be here tomorrow and the next day and the next…. but these moments won’t.